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[carryon]

I hate Eric Kripke.

I hate that my mind can not let the hell go of this show, of the boys. That even thought it's been going to hell for a season, and I know it's not going to be better I'm going to keep watching. Because of them. Because of some twisted loyalty to two people who don't even exist. Whose universe won't leave my head, ever I don't think. And I want it to, and I don't, and I've got this messed up loyalty to them and I just... I want to be able to do something about it. More than do nothing and miss them like hell. It isn't good, it isn't healthy and I don't even know any more.

But I am going to stick with it because I'm delusional, because I'm not going to abandon them. Because more than anything I want to do what I can for them, even if it's just in my head.

I want to believe that they can have an ending that doesn't suck. That they can be them again, and have...something, anything. That they can be together and brothers and god it's just a show, it's fantasy, it's controlled, and after everything they've been through, that they will be through, don't they deserve to have some kind of a happy ending more than anyone?

The problem is I don't think they've had that possibility for a long while now.

And Kripke's scared off the one who might have been able to help me give them one.

I don' know what to do any more.

Comments

[crossroadblues]

Can always try anyway.

As long as we don't have to set it during s5.

I mean, I left my DVDs behind, but I have downloads.

[carryon]

Kinda rude to the CM boys though, don't you think? It's their time in the spotlight..

[crossroadblues]

Mm, true... we'll have to see what happens.

Someday all fandoms may peacefully coexist, like wildebeest and.. okay, that's not a good metaphor.

:D?

[carryon]

I guess so.

...We /so/ need to do a giant massive x-over verse for the two-year anniversary. That close enough? XD

Wha-what kind of question is that? XD

[crossroadblues]

Oh, god. That would be terrifying what are you SAYING- XD ...yes. The answer is yes. xD

A very deep and poignant one. Obviously. Just like ALL of my questions. :D

B|?

[carryon]

Yay~ :D That will take some planning. xD

I realize now, how silly of me. xD

It's a muppet!

[crossroadblues]

It.. it really will.. xD I'm scared.

Really. How dare you doubt me? :P

...I was going for Hotch in sunglasses- XD

[carryon]

It's...highly possible you should be. I have a mostly empty notebook. xD

I just don't know.. xD

...Hotch, do you have something you'd like to tell us?

[crossroadblues]

Awshit. WHAT HAVE I DONE.

Sigh. Just siiiigh, you. xD

...HOTCH IS NOT A MUPPET.

[carryon]

...Made me very happy? :D

Yes, yes... XD

...Does the emoticon know that? XD

[crossroadblues]

The things I do for you. Honestly. xD

SIIIIIGH. :D

...yes. YES IT DOES SHHH. NOT A MUPPET.

[carryon]

<333 You created this monster--

xD

Juuust checking~

[crossroadblues]

♥ I guess we're at the "no regrets" phase- XD

NOT A MUPPET.

B|

[carryon]

<3 Yaay. xD

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[crossroadblues]

OO;;;

WHAT HAVE YOU DOOOOONE--

[carryon]

...copy and paste it into word?

[crossroadblues]

It's not doing anything D:

[carryon]

...it's supposed to be giant ASCII magic Spence~ INTERNET YOU HAVE FAILED ME!

[crossroadblues]

Awwww. Damn internet. D|

[carryon]

*FISTSHAKE*